I write you letters once everyday
of all the good, not the pain I see
to give you hope and not dismay
I miss you so, I'm miles away
in your arms, I'd rather be
I write you letters once a day,
About my life, and how it's frayed
Now I'm a soldier, routine I lead
I wish for hope and not dismay
Coming back will be long delayed
the smell of home is all I need
I write you letters once a day
Inside this tent, the battles rage
the last letter you'll ever read
kill the joy, filled with dismay
Forgot the words, I didn't say
to you my wife, my wife to be
I wrote you letters once everyday
to give you hope, but not today
I am strong, but I hold weakness
I am independant, but I rely on others
I am great, but not without guidance
I am happy, but not without a low
I am love, but only beacuse of you
I am reliable, but not without momentum
I am helpful, but only if you see it
I am stupid, but only because of naivety
I am isolated, but because I allow myself
I am afraid, but I have all reasons
I am stuck, but not on the past
I am distracted, but my attention is centered
I am abused, but only at birth
I am innocent, but only compared to them
I am sensitive, but not without a rough exterior
I am successful, but not without scars
I am changed, but not
I am strong, but I hold weakness
I am independant, but I rely on others
I am great, but not without guidance
I am happy, but not without a low
I am love, but only beacuse of you
I am reliable, but not without momentum
I am helpful, but only if you see it
I am stupid, but only because of naivety
I am isolated, but because I allow myself
I am afraid, but I have all reasons
I am stuck, but not on the past
I am distracted, but my attention is centered
I am abused, but only at birth
I am innocent, but only compared to them
I am sensitive, but not without a rough exterior
I am successful, but not without scars
I am changed, but not
Why are you so different?
You're not who you used to be
And why am I so lonely,
When you're right infront of me?
Something isn't right,
I can see it in your eyes
I'm just trying to find
A truth behind the lies
You act like we're so close
But we couldn't be more far apart
And right now I can't handle
Someone playing with my heart
Tell me that I'm dreaming,
Tell me our love's still strong,
Tell me you're not leaving,
Please tell me that I'm wrong
Tell me that everything
Is going to be just fine
Tell me you love me
And you'll always be mine
Constantly, we're fighting
It gets worse everyday
And I don't want to stay
Just to
Sitting here,
On the ledge,
Ten meters of air between the earth
And my beat-up, old running shoes,
I swing my feet and think of you.
We used to sit outside at night
And talk for hours about
Nothing;
Now I sit outside each night
And think of you.
I wonder what you're doing now –
Do you still miss me?
Do you love me?
Are you trying to forget me?
Did you keep all of those
Promises
You made before I went away?
I still keep all of mine.
Sitting here,
On the ledge,
I close my eyes and
Listen to the night:
Wind whispers through the trees, and I,
I whisper your name back to them.
I wish that you were
Here with me
To reassure
Everything I've grown to know
has begun to slip away
My mind is lapsing
I'm slipping farther from you
Or are you slipping farther from me
I guess I don't know anymore
But you're the only one who can stop my screaming
Even if you are the one who caused it
And the lies I've built up are crashing down
My world has turned into one big frown
I guess I don't care anymore
I exist to feel need
But now some other purpose is clawing it's way free
I can't seem to see
It's all going to end up being what it's meant to be
Whether I know what the purpose is
I guess I don't feel anymore
Everything I've tried has failed
Nothing is meant for
Current Residence: The rainy state of WA Favourite genre of music: I prefer none, all are good Favourite style of art: Whatever style I want :] MP3 player of choice: iPod video D: Shell of choice: Uhm, turtle shell with red headband Wallpaper of choice: Default Dell one? Skin of choice: I like my brown skin.. Favourite cartoon character: Samurai Champloo characters Personal Quote: "Lead, follow, or get out of the way"
Almost two years later. I'm making my return.
I've been more inspired lately than I have been in.. forever? (forever means a couple months)
I've found a new muse, rather, several muses. Music is a big one, lately I've been very inspired by new upcoming bands. And a new person in my life, gets me writing everyday. So it's nice.
I'm older now, not much more mature I don't believe, but I think I've experienced a trip to hell and back. It's had many ups and downs, but I think all for the better of my writing and your reading pleasure. So I hope to get some good feedback on my new scraps.
I hope I can reconnect with those who watched me. I'm a
DA serves no purpose to me. I haven't wrote poetry in a long time and I only wrote it based on how I felt at that moment when I posted the poem. I quit now. Thank you everyone, for reading my limited-vocabulary poems. I appreciate it. The only sharing of poetry I'll be doing is with my pencil, to my notebooks.
- Raf